An introduction

Hello there, whoever it may concern. You may or may not be aware that I already have a blog of my own, and ask why I have started this one. I do have my own reasons to starting this blog, and no it is not about my cat, or a cat I wish to have. In short, it is not a cat blog.

One of the reasons I have begun this new blog is because a couple people already read my other blog. I personally like blogging and it started out great but one of my character traits is that I care too much about what people think, or could possibly think. I want to be able to write in my own voice, and not a voice which in my people-pleasing character writes in. If that makes any sense.

Many people may not consider me as a person with deep thoughts, well, I personally don't consider myself a deep person, but I like to think I am. People may be able to argue quite outright about their opinions on a certain topic and defend it mercilessly while I on the other hand seem like I stand idly by. The truth is is that I am a listener and like to hear every aspect of a subject per say and make an educated opinion. I'm not a person who is able to verbally relay their mind with ease and I do have difficulty saying what I truly think or feel. In the end it becomes out to be something like "That was awesome," when I truly feel that the idea has moved me immensely and has sent me spiraling down into thought. Whenever I am deep in thought I apparently seem pissed at the world. However that is not the case; I am just out of the current zone and have retreated into my own world.

I had watched a movie today (Inception) which makes me realize, in my own opinion that the most powerful word in the Modern English language is the word Idea. How can one word be so powerful? I am a person with many ideas, and I have a tendency to share those ideas in its infancy with people, hoping to let that idea evolve and change so that it becomes a shared feeling, an improved idea.
Many of those times, and I emphasize many, those ideas have been shot down. Some by people who seem like they should not impact me greatly, and some by people who are extremely close to me. Not everyone agrees with an idea, but it hurts me all the same because that idea came from my mind. I want to be able to share an experience of emotion, of amazement of something so vague, unique in a sense, unorthodox can be so intriguing. I have turned to theatrical arts so I could have had a chance to express some of these ideas, and some have turned out exceptionally well, but I wish to have had more time to develop concepts and improve them time and time again.

I can tell you I have an incredible urge to share this post, well this blog as a whole to everyone, because that's me; I care about what people think. But this should be the one time that I do not cave into one of my temptations and be able to prove to myself that I am a person who is able to take control and complete a goal for once in my life. I always try and find the shortest possible route to a goal, skipping necessary lessons and hurting myself in the end. Like trying to go down a mountain (an analogy that came up in my head) and trying to get to the bottom you jump off a few cliffs here and there but you end up hurting yourself in the end.

If there's one thing I would like to hold onto is that the word Idea is the strongest, most powerful word in the world. That will generate my thought, my perception. I hope to share it all with you someday.